lirik lagu calvin stephano – nighthawk
who i was was reckless
i wish this nighthawk would let me sleep
i don’t ask for forgiveness
but for you to leave my dreams
i’m a better person now
i’ve been working on my faults
feel like i’ve accepted it
but then summer night falls
the popcorn ceiling stares me down
i f~cked up, yes i did
i’m so sorry i hurt you
i own up to all of it
maybe they’re right:
these things are skewed
they say i’m too hard on myself
but i’m so confused
and i go so quickly from feeling great
to not knowing why i feel like sh~t
see, i’ve written many letters that i never tried to send
’cause reaching out years later might replay her distress
yet a good apology might help those old wounds mend
and maybe honesty might help her make some sense of it
sure, alright
so i’ve been thinking about it for a really long time
i said sorry poorly before, this time it’s what is right
i owe it to her to properly apologize
and now i wait
she says, “you hurt me too much to accept it but thanks”
and that’s okay
please be okay
through the years i have grown
but honestly right now,
i think i’d rather self~loathe
relapse and indulge
how i feel is on me
i immaturely imposed unhealthy ideas of love
i’m a lonely kid, day dreamer,
lame heart, but way weaker,
i thought she could save me and that i should’ve been enough to save her
and i wish we had first met later, now i have more self~love
but who am i to forgive myself for her hurt when it’s her hurt, huh?
things the memories ruin: hobbies, food and rest
and i keep taking pain pills for this pain in my chest
they don’t really help ’cause i still can’t get out of my bed
i re~obsess over what i worked hard to repress
i wanna cry but i got too good at keeping it in
i need a scarecrow for the bird perched on my window sill
gotta think of the light, when the sun will shine again
oh please let me go, let me be
Lirik lagu lainnya:
- lirik lagu balthvs – what’s the use
- lirik lagu chefboy tyree – alone
- lirik lagu emotionals – wastedd
- lirik lagu akros – if i die
- lirik lagu amyl and the sniffers – born to be alive
- lirik lagu drop dead xx – wu tang//vroom
- lirik lagu kelly khumalo – kuyenyukela
- lirik lagu family fodder – cold wars
- lirik lagu marble mist – you know what love is (ep version)
- lirik lagu thato saul & tyson s.t – alright