lirik lagu uhhhhhhh!! & the bussin boys - under the slushy surface
mom says, “go get some milk.”
i come back with a slurpee
she looks at me like i’m the devil’s spawn
“why didn’t you get the milk?”
i don’t answer
she sighs
it’s the sigh of someone who knows better
but is too tired to ask why i came back
with a frozen drink instead of something useful
dad says, “get me a beer.”
i come back with a slurpee
he doesn’t even flinch
he sighs, too
we all sigh
the sighs are contagious
like a disease we’re all slowly dying from
maybe if i pour it on my hands
i won’t feel them shaking
maybe if i drink it fast enough
i’ll stop thinking about the last argument
it’s a battle, really, the way the ice shatters in my mouth
and numbs my tongue
a tiny rebellion in every slurp
the sugar’s cold
and i don’t know if i’m doing this for the thrill
or if it’s just a habit i picked up somewhere—
the habit of not feeling anything at all
but there’s the shame
the thing that bubbles under the slushy surface
mom’s in the kitchen
sniffing the air like she smells defeat
she says, “you think you’re funny, huh?”
but i’m not laughing
i’m just here, drowning in cherry and blue
drowning in all the things i’m supposed to be
but don’t know how to be
dad’s watching tv—
but he’s not watching, you know?
his eyes are stuck in a loop
like the static of a channel no one’s ever supposed to find
“i swear to god,” he mutters
“i didn’t raise you to be like this.”
but what is this?
a kid who buys slurpees instead of milk and beer?
is that really so bad?
i just want to stop feeling like everything’s always falling apart
i stare at my reflection in the slushy cup
who’s that kid staring back?
some broken doll with a sugar high and an existential crisis
maybe if i drink a little more
the face will change
maybe if i pour the whole damn thing over my head
i won’t feel like i’m on the edge of the abyss
or at least, i’ll freeze for a second
and in that second, i won’t care that i’m falling
i come back into the living room
slurpee in hand
and everything’s fine—
or so i tell myself
the room smells like yesterday’s arguments and the empty promises we made
but no one talks
mom’s too busy sighing
dad’s too busy pretending
i take another sip
maybe if i drink enough
i won’t even have to care about the things i’ve broken
the promises
the lives
the time spent counting seconds between moments of not existing
maybe if i pour it on my hands
i won’t feel them shaking
maybe if i keep drinking
i won’t be so scared of silence
maybe if i hold the cup tight enough
i won’t feel like i’m losing everything
just by being alive
and maybe
just maybe
this slurpee will be the last thing i ever need
but then again
i don’t really believe in happy endings
so i take another sip
and another
slurpees never really fix anything
but for a while
they make the world a little softer
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