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lirik lagu bucky hoover - neurological chokehold

you feel things deeply
you feel them all at once
like someone hit every switch on the panel
and broke the dial off
you can go from laughing
to drowning in a flash
because a glance or a word
drags up a memory you never speak about

it’s physical too
your chest clamps
your vision tunnels
your thoughts scatter like broken glass
you want to explain but words don’t come fast enough
and deep down you’re scared they’ll leave
before you can get them out
because they always do

you want closeness you crave it
but when someone gets close
it feels like they see every scar
you’ve spent your life hiding
and your body assumes they’ll use it to hurt you

so you test them
not to be cruel
but because your nervous system is screaming
make them leave before they matter
you say things you don’t mean
you watch yourself ruin moments
you swore you’d protect
it feels automatic
like pulling your hand from a flame
except the flame is intimacy

it’s not just outbursts
it’s the quiet
the kind that eats you alive
you sit in a room for hours
unable to decide if you should move
something simple becomes a threat
your phone your laundry your breath
everything feels like drowning
with no surface in sight

anxiety isn’t nervous energy
it’s full body hijack
your chest locks
you forget how to breathe
your stomach flips
everything feels wrong
but there’s no obvious reason
you just feel like something’s coming
and sometimes
you can’t even trust your senses
you see fl!ckers in the woods
you hear your name in the silence
you don’t know if it’s real
you don’t tell anyone
because they’ll say you’re broken
but you’re not
you’re just surviving a mind
that never shuts off

focus
shattered
just make a list they say
try that while a bomb ticks in your gut
you forget mid action
you reread the same line ten times
you leave food on the stove
you walk into rooms
and forget who you are

it’s not sp~cey
it’s overwhelmed
your brain reroutes energy
to survive the next hour
memory gets fried
decision making collapses
your muscles ache
your sleep is wrecked
you wake up clenched
and haven’t relaxed in years
adrenaline poisons you in slow motion
your immune system shuts down
you ache you twitch you break out
you forget how to relax
you haven’t felt safe since you were a kid

appetite gone or it binges
your weight swings
your hands shake
your jaw locks
even dreams don’t let you rest

daily survival becomes a test
cooking you forget burn it stare at it
not sure if you’re hungry
or just too anxious to eat

hygiene
you stand in front of a shower
trying to convince yourself
you’re worth the water
sometimes the cold feels better
like proof you still exist

feeding your animals
you’d starve before they do
you wonder if they’d be better off
without you
that guilt hits harder
than anything you feel for yourself

it’s like being lit on fire
and told to stop screaming
you feel too much or nothing
you cancel plans then sob alone
you apologize too often
you dissociate
you watch yourself from the ceiling
you believe the worst thoughts
not because they’re true
but because they’re familiar

it’s like waking up next to wreckage
you don’t remember causing
people are bleeding
looking at you like you’re the one who lit the fuse
and maybe you were
you just can’t remember striking the match

it’s shame without context
guilt without a timeline
you’re trying to solve a crime
where you’re both the suspect and the witness
but the footage is missing
you ask yourself
was i really that cruel
why can’t i remember what destroyed everything

and when no answer comes
you assume the worst
because you’ve been the worst
even if you didn’t mean to be

you apologize but it sounds hollow
you explain but it sounds like denial
people stop listening some walk
others stay but never look at you the same again

so you retreat not out of coldness
but because you don’t trust yourself anymore
silence feels safer than the risk
of burning down someone else’s world without knowing it

living with yourself feels like being handcuffed
to a version of you that might go off at any second
and you’re terrified because it still has your face
your voice your name and it never lets up

you want to fix it you want to be better
you want to deserve love and peace and forgiveness
but how the f~ck do you fix something broken
when you don’t even remember breaking it

you want connection but panic when it comes
you push people away then break down when they leave
you sabotage love then beg for it back
then hate yourself for needing it so badly

you overthink every word and panic over silence
you assume they’ll leave because they always did
when someone says i love you
you brace for the blow that always follows

it’s not cute and it’s not aesthetic
it’s waking up with guilt you can’t even name
it’s talking yourself out of suicide
it’s holding something good in your hands
and watching your brain say you don’t deserve it

it’s h~ll with rare beautiful flashes of heaven
and you cling to them like breath underwater

this isn’t mood swings it’s a neurological chokehold
a war between instinct memory and reason
and reason always f~cking loses
you’re just trying to make it through another day
without falling apart in a way that makes someone leave

that’s what the f~ck it’s like
every day in my mind

- lirik lagu bucky hoover

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