lirik lagu aryen sainté - how i've been
[verse 1]
you probably don’t care but just in case you did
when you first walked away i couldn’t handle it
drank myself to sleep, poison in my veins
almost died from the bottle trying to numb the pain
downloaded apps i swore i’d never touch
scrolled through faces but it didn’t mean much
went on senseless dates, staring through their eyes
they showed off their bodies but nothing would rise
they asked for tomorrow, i unmatched and left
said goodbye my friend, but my chest still wept
the first month was the worst, i was losing ground
while you were dancing in the city, i was spiraling down
[pre~chorus]
i even called your parents, told them you were fine
didn’t tell them the truth, didn’t cross that line
they asked me to lunch, i turned away
carried all your secrets that you made me pay
friends offered drugs, said the good stuff heals
but i wasn’t broken enough to make that deal
boss pulled me aside, said i’d lost my spark
but i just wanted to fade into the dark
[chorus]
that’s how i’ve been
broken but breathing
falling but rising
lost but still healing
that’s how i’ve been
carrying the fire
wishing for an ending
but finding something higher
[verse 2]
one night it got so bad i laid down with pills
told myself it won’t hurt, whispered “just be still”
kissed my dog goodbye, turned the phone off tight
closed my eyes as my stomach burned in the night
saw the white light coming, smiled and said please
let it be over, let me finally sleep
but he said not now, it isn’t your time
and sent me back broken with an empty spine
i woke up angry i was still alive
trapped in the house where i barely survived
but something changed in the back of my head
why let you k!ll me, that’s what you wanted instead
so i got up, wiped my face off clean
started walking through the park where i used to dream
funny that same day you came back to my door
crying for your mail like the world owed more
you said life’s unfair, you’ve got nothing left
while i fed you my food in the place i wept
i sat in silence while you poured out your pain
but never once asked how i was doing the same
[pre~chorus]
that was the day i swore i wouldn’t give in
i wouldn’t let your shadow decide if i lived
i found a church in rancho, rock hill by name
they hugged me, told me jesus still knows my pain
got baptized in the water, came up brand new
felt a warmth in my chest i’d never known through you
made friends, shared stories, found stone in the crowd
he was left just like me, but he made it out proud
[chorus]
that’s how i’ve been
broken but breathing
falling but rising
lost but still healing
that’s how i’ve been
carrying the fire
wishing for an ending
but finding something higher
[verse 3]
i booked a flight to tokyo, left it all behind
got a new phone, new number, new state of mind
it hurt to be gone, but i started to see
why i woke up that night when the pills cut me
life is beautiful when you step outside
i paid for strangers’ meals, saw the joy in their eyes
while you were online showing skin for likes
i was thousands of miles away, healing in real time
your little brother reached out, it cut me deep
i told him i loved him, said “be strong, don’t weep”
but the next day you made him block me too
toxic runs thick, it’s the only truth in you
[bridge]
and maybe one day the roles will switch
i’ll be laughing, you’ll be crying, calling it quits
i’ll be standing on a stage with a brand new life
while you sit in the shadows wondering why
and if that day comes and you’re ready to break
i’ll do what you couldn’t, i’ll choose to stay
if you reach out, i’ll save you, even then
because no matter the lies, i loved you to the end
[final chorus]
that’s how i’ve been
broken but breathing
falling but rising
lost but still healing
that’s how i’ve been
carrying the fire
wishing for an ending
but finding something higher
[outro]
that’s how i’ve been
i’ve been cut but i won’t bend
turned my pain into a hymn
this is how i live again (again)
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